Sunday, August 13, 2006

I'm struggling. Do I come home to visit my maternal grandmother who is being taken care of by hospice? Do I buy a plane ticket now or wait? I have NO time accumulated at the new job and NO money with which to finance such a trip, but will I be able to live with myself if I don't at least go home to say goodbye? And if I do go home for that, will I be able to afford a 2nd trip for a funeral? (I HATE to think like that, but at this point, it's a reality I have to face.)
Have I mentioned lately how much I despise living this far away from my family? I hate it. If only we made just a little more a month and could afford to go home more often. :( What would you do?